Seth...and stuff.

Ok so i'm still hooked on seth...even though he's going out with julie...see she was the only one i actually told about my feelings for seth (B4 i wrote it here) and then she went off and started going out with him. at first i was pissed off at her...then her sister told me they had been going out for at least a week before i told Julie...so now i'm just...well i dont know what i'm feeling. i still like seth...but julie is my best mate so i really dont know what to do. i just cant believe she didnt tell me she was going out with him when i told her how i felt...

in other news...i've started hanging out with some new people from a church in Hallet Cove...they're pretty kewl people. especially Joanne...she's a hoot...she's so funny...oh and i have to say a great big thankyou to julie's little sister Amanda for dragging me along to her youth group thingo...that was so fun and if i hadnt have gone...i never would have met Jo and the others.

oh great...zac has invited me to a bbq on the weekend to celebrate Seth moving in and everyone's going to be there...trouble is i'm going to be pretty much the only one therr without a b/f or g/f. ezcept Tammy...she's not going to be bringing anyone. hmm...i think i'm being way to irrational. i mean people arer allowed to be happy even though i'm not. i think maybe i should start concentrating on the things in my life that are good. like the new friends i've got...and the fact that christmas is only 5 weeks and two days away and i'll finally get to meet my little cousin from vietnam and my new aunty who i've never seen b4...it's going to be the whole family together for once for christmas...even the nannies are coming over lol...then we go away the day after Christmas.

i so cannot wait to get away. Pt Lincoln may not be much but it's stilla beautiful place. and besides that i've got a heap of friends who live over there now...like roaslie...i havent seen her for a while. and Chloe...she always goes over for the christmas holidays. and Jacob and the twins...they are always over there for ages for the tunarama festival.

oh i'm going to have so much fun...i know for a fact i'm going to come home sunburnt...but that's a sign that i've been spending time in the sun...which i never seem to do...

man i've just realised how much i've rambled on...im really bad with things like that. i get something on my mind and i just have to let it out and there arent always people there to talk to...

well i'm going to go now and start work.

ciao for now brown cow

~Jess~

Jess's Random Thoughts

Man it's pouring outside and i have to go for a drive and deliver some stuff...somehow i dont think that's gunna happen anythime soon.
EEEK the roof is leaking. that's not good. man this place is falling apart. we've had flooding through the three main fofices and they cant be used now plus there is a leak in the roof in the doorway next to me and it is making me wet ugh...maybe i should move...

Neways... i havent posted for a while... not much is going on. i guess i'm happy atm. no major dramas. i guess my life is kinda boring...


ooh except i went bowling on tuesday nite with Seth and Julie's families. it was so fun. i'm like part of Julie's family now. she's like a sister to me...only better cos we never fight hehe. oh bowling was fun. julie and i were doing everything possible to distract seth and his brother whiole they were trying to bowl. i was laughing uncontrollably for no aparent reason and that seemed to work...julie on the other hand. she decided to flash Owen(Seth's older brother) while he was trying to bowl and he ended up dropping the ball onto hsi foot...stupid eejit hehe.

i had fun. it was great being out with them and not having to worry about my family stuff for one night. i am definately going to do that again. tho this time i think we should go laser skirmish or paintballing instead. that would be more fun.

newho. i think maybe that i might like seth a little more than a friend. i'm not going to tell him tho becuase i know it'll end in disaster like every other time has...not that i've tried to tell him before but i've told other people and it has just been thrown back in my face. so i'm done with that now. it's up to him to make the first move and if he doesnt...welll then i guess i'll just have to do with being friends.

wow i've written a lot. ah well. not that it matters. nobody is going to read it neways...

well i'm gunna go now. i've got work to do.

Ciao for now brown cow!

~Jess~